Decisions and Priority

kop this from Shawn's blog, which speaks to me alot

"Your statutes are my heritage forever
My heart is set on keeping Your decrees
Please still my anxious urge toward rebellion
Let love keep my will upon its knees"

For those who dont know, I have join student council as my cca this year. It is quite tough at the moment because I have alot of things to settle, partly because my team is organising a bazaar at the end of the month. I do face alot of struggles about making the right decision and prioritize my work, study, ministry and src. Still struggling, but I hope thru this experience, I can learn and grow from there...

with my eyes i can only see that far
with my heart, it is very deceitful
keep me in check, of my attitudes and motives
Because there is no point hiding from You
You graciously lead the humble to goodness
And I would gladly bow down to cast away my pride

Confliction

Do u ever have the feeling?
You are glad its over
at the same time u are sad its gone
life is an irony isn't it?
but come on we aren't machines after all
tats what being humans is all about

Faith to believe

Here in my Life- Hillsong United

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At Your word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failing surely would have drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You found me
In that very same place
All my failing surely would have drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus You’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life!

even as situations are not going to my life, i want to rmb this that Jesus will pull me thru despite all circumstances. My future, my dreams and plan I want to commit into ur hands Lord. maybe now i cant see it, but i hope Lord u can help me see it, ur plans for me for my tertiary education.

NS brothers gathering

Past few days has been pretty relax for me, because I am currently unemployed =P However it is becox im tat free therefore i have the time to spend with some of the NS brothers today at minds cafe. Jon Lwee, Jie Xun, Bruce,Linus,Andy and Eugence GOH(finally came back frm europe). It feels nostalgia to see them all again, especially jie xun and bruce since I haven talk to them much ever since I transferred over to the uni side =x

Through out, I really enjoy spending time with them-although the game we played are not tat fun at times =.=", its the ppl tat make it more fun. The attributes games we played especially, the objectives is pretty lame, because we just have to snatch the right card then we earn points. If not for using others as the topic, we wouldn't have tat much fun self entertaining ourselves =p haha but i really have fun playing shadow hunters though, a rpg board games. Especially the second game, where i acidentaly killed of Andy, my teammate, LOL in the end it became 3 against me alone, cui.

In the end, its really this fellowship that makes today enjoyable. To see one another doing well, walking right with God =) In the next few months, we be stepping on different journey, we might not have the chance to see each other for weeks. But I strongly believe that we will see each other again at the end of this race, together.

SAT

K, I have already registered myself for SAT papers. My test date is 7 Nov, still have ard 3 mths plus to study. It may be enough to help me into a uni place but it is the path where i am more confident in doing. Retaking my A levels is seriously not a solution ever since from the start, because I highly doubted myself to study on my own. Even last time in JC, where it is a conducive environment to study i didn't do well, it will be very hard for me to did better than the last time...

I do regret for not focusing on my studies in my JC years and addicted to playing computer games....

Alright no time to cry over spoil milk, learn from mistakes and move on Shem...

Night Cycling

Thank goodness i am able to complete the nite cycling ytd!! The fact tat I have only learnt how to cycle last week makes this more amazing lol. The cycling route itself is ok, but alot of upslopes and downslopes. The feeling of wind gushing down on ur body is really enjoyable haha! I really wanna thx darryl and yong sheng and gavin for accompanying me behind, cox i not used to travelling at super high speed. Most of the time I will be lagging behind while the 3 of them pushes me onwards.

We cycled from around 1am till 730am. Tengah airbase to home team academy, to Gombak airbase, to Nee Soon camp, to Paya Lebar Airbase and finally to East Coast park to return our bikes. At each camp, we pray for it and the cg, praying tat God will work thru them greatly in thier respective camps.

By the time we reach the ending point, i was so tired tat i dun really feel like going home, but just sleep at east coast park LOL. My whole legs feel like jelly, cant even walk straight la! HAha but it is really a experience i will never forget! I will post more photos after i get them =)


And happy belated birthday timothy! Hope u like the present i gave u! haha

YESssss!!! I know how to cycle liao!! Haha after a 2 days of training i can finally get the grasp of cycling. Although still not very stable, it is a great improvement compared to last sunday- it was totally dreadful! Now at least i can cycle straight, still have a bit of problems in turning though..
I have met my mid term goal too!



¹² "Even now," declares the LORD,
"return to me with all your heart,
with fasting and weeping and mourning."

¹³ Rend your heart
and not your garments.
Return to the LORD your God,
for he is gracious and compassionate,
slow to anger and abounding in love,
and he relents from sending calamity.

¹⁴ Who knows? He may turn and have pity
and leave behind a blessing—
grain offerings and drink offerings
for the LORD your God.

¹⁵ Blow the trumpet in Zion,
declare a holy fast,
call a sacred assembly.

¹⁶ Gather the people,
consecrate the assembly;
bring together the elders,
gather the children,
those nursing at the breast.
Let the bridegroom leave his room
and the bride her chamber.

¹⁷ Let the priests, who minister before the LORD,
weep between the temple porch and the altar.
Let them say, "Spare your people, O LORD.
Do not make your inheritance an object of scorn,
a byword among the nations.
Why should they say among the peoples,
'Where is their God?' "

God really spoke to me this week in this verse Joel 2:12-17, to repent and to submit to Him. I admit tat there are some areas of my life not live biblically and can be a stumbling block to ppl. This verse is like shouting at me telling me to repent now not later. Pastor Michael gave a good analogy today: He was asking 2 person to use a bat to beat him. A said tat he cannot do it because he is afraid of going to jail. However B said tat he cannot do it, because he love him. Its the 2 different mindset but ultimately thier actions are righteous. Its like repentance, would u repent because u love Jesus and Love His ppl? Or would u repent because u scared of the consequences? Either motivation is good but let Love be ur motivation instead of fear!